Glance Through Thought
Rabu, 12 November 2014
Minggu, 22 Juni 2014
When words can illustrate your thoughts
I Am Not Yours
I am not yours, not lost in you,
Not lost, although I long to be
Lost as a candle lit at noon,
Lost as a snowflake in the sea
You love me, and I find you still
A spirit beautiful and bright,
Yet I am I, who long to be
Lost as a light is lost in light.
Oh plunge me deep in love - put out
My sense, leave me deaf and blind,
Swept by the tempest of your love,
A tapper in a rushing wind (Sara Teasdale)
Book Challenge
Book challenge, yeah i'm the one who addict with book. I wasted my spare time to read (sometimes if i'm not mager huhuhu). Hmmm, let me tell you one of amazing book: EVERYDAY by DAVID LEVITHAN
i borrowed from my friend, thank a lot to allysia tifany (i spell not in right way *faktor sengaja). Before i tell you the review from myself, i give you the synopsis :
"Every day a different body. Every day a different life. Every day in love with the same girl.
There’s never any warning about where it will be or who it will be. A has made peace with that, even established guidelines by which to live: Never get too attached. Avoid being noticed. Do not interfere.
It’s all fine until the morning that A wakes up in the body of Justin and meets Justin’s girlfriend, Rhiannon. From that moment, the rules by which A has been living no longer apply. Because finally A has found someone he wants to be with—day in, day out, day after day.
With his new novel, David Levithan has pushed himself to new creative heights. He has written a captivating story that will fascinate readers as they begin to comprehend the complexities of life and love in A’s world, as A and Rhiannon seek to discover if you can truly love someone who is destined to change every day."
Yeah, after you read what's going on your mind? how if you in his position, you wake up in the morning with different soul, different life, different house, poor you there's no way to came back home because you will never had home either for glance or eternity. That's the fact......
hmm, how if david levithan make the story that "He wake up next morning in MADONNA'S Life?" *lol
This is my first time i read david levithan and i want it more!!! YEAAAA how amazing this book. If i can rate i will give 9/10. This stories so touching, surprising, hypnotized, emotional, sad, terrifying, romantic, strange, and beautiful at all. I was amazed for the idea of the stories by making real the very unreal thought of waking up as a different person every day, yeah i still thinking for awhile because I wasn't sure how i felt about the stories ,but WOW. He made the stories that you never get bored and you will always surprise in every part of the book.
Blessed everyone, xx
Jumat, 20 Juni 2014
Terlalu banyak pertimbangan
Mungkin saya yang harus bertanya pada diri saya sendiri "siapakah
saya?" "Apakah tujuan hidup saya?". Dan sudah seharusnya juga saya yang
mencari jawaban dari setiap pertanyaan itu. Namun bagaimana dengan
kenyataan nya?, mengapa saya masih membutuhkan bantuan orang lain untuk
menjawab dan mengapa saya membiarkan orang lain yang mencarikan jawaban
atas pertanyaan itu?. Sebenarnya siapa saya? Dan apa tujuan saya?.
Katanya
setiap pertanyaaan memiliki jawaban, apakah pertanyaan mengenai
kehidupan dan jati diri juga memiliki jawaban yang bernilai suatu
kepastian untuk kedepannya? Ataukah saya membiarkan orang lain mengatur
saya sesuka hatinya yang katanya demi "kebaikan", apakah waktu saja yang
mampu menjawab? atau perlukah saya membaca berbagai buku-buku
kehidupan. Sejujurnya saya capek dengan kata "menunggu", siapa sih yang
mau menunggu yang tak pasti? .Tidak bisakah aku seperti burung di awan
yang mengepakkan sayap sebebas-bebasnya tanpa perlu takut akan jatuh
atau di makan oleh pemangsanya?. Jika dikaji dengan logika itu gila,
mana ada manusia yang terlahir di dunia ini ingin terbang bebas tanpa
takut akan jatuh dan terpuruk suatu saat nanti, jika kelak ada yang
berbicara seperti itu maka dia pantas dikatakan "munafik".
Banyak
hal di kehidupan ku yang tidak aku mengerti. Sejujurnya aku pernah
mengalami berbagai masalah, kelabilan anak remaja dan sebagaiannya.
Bukan kah hal-hal itu menjadikan ku lebih dewasa?.
Namun
dari segala perenungan saya, mengapa saya belum menemukan jawaban dari
setiap pertanyaan kehidupan dan jatidiri. Saya melakukan kesalahan besar
dalam hidup saya. Saya tidak mampu mempertahankan apa merupakan
"passion" yaitu sosial politik. Sebenarnya saya bisa melawan, tapi
kenapa otak saya malah mentoleransi pilihan papa saya. Sejujurnya sampe
detik ini saya tidak mengetahui hal apa yang harus saya
toleransi, saya rasakan menggunakan perasaan dan saya tolak dengan
tegas. Bagi saya semua itu masuk dalam "greyzone" atau tidak jelas.
Kedengarannya konyol memang, saya bagaikan seorang manusia yang tidak
memiliki nalar maupun perasaan sebagai mahluk hidup yang berderajat
tinggi di mata Tuhan.
Suatu kesalahan besar dan bodoh sebenarnya, sekarang saya masih duduk merenung tidak tahu harus memulai dari mana untuk bisa mendalami "passion" saya. Dikala orang tua saya menanyakan ingin melanjutkan kemana, saya malah memiliki 1000x pertimbangan konyol, awalnya ingin begini namun malah takut begitu dan berakhir dengan kata "TIDAK JADI". Kalau sekarang saya mengelak dan melakukan perlawanan, hanya akan ada 2 hal: 1. Apakah ayah saya akan mengerti? atau 2. Saya akan di berikan ceramah 24/7 tanpa henti karena kehebatan saya yang ingin lintas jurusan secara mendadak!. Ya begitulah saya, dengan kelabilan saya, saya melakukan sebuah kesalahan besar dalam menentukan masa depan, konyol memang. Disaat semuanya sudah dapat menentukan apa yang mereka inginkan, saya masih bingung dan malah terjebak dalam kesalahan pemilihan. HAH! jika boleh saya ingin memiliki kesempatan kedua, ya kesempatan kedua hanya untuk memperbaiki sesuatu yang menurut saya pada akhirnya memiliki makna untuk "diperjuangkan".
Suatu kesalahan besar dan bodoh sebenarnya, sekarang saya masih duduk merenung tidak tahu harus memulai dari mana untuk bisa mendalami "passion" saya. Dikala orang tua saya menanyakan ingin melanjutkan kemana, saya malah memiliki 1000x pertimbangan konyol, awalnya ingin begini namun malah takut begitu dan berakhir dengan kata "TIDAK JADI". Kalau sekarang saya mengelak dan melakukan perlawanan, hanya akan ada 2 hal: 1. Apakah ayah saya akan mengerti? atau 2. Saya akan di berikan ceramah 24/7 tanpa henti karena kehebatan saya yang ingin lintas jurusan secara mendadak!. Ya begitulah saya, dengan kelabilan saya, saya melakukan sebuah kesalahan besar dalam menentukan masa depan, konyol memang. Disaat semuanya sudah dapat menentukan apa yang mereka inginkan, saya masih bingung dan malah terjebak dalam kesalahan pemilihan. HAH! jika boleh saya ingin memiliki kesempatan kedua, ya kesempatan kedua hanya untuk memperbaiki sesuatu yang menurut saya pada akhirnya memiliki makna untuk "diperjuangkan".
question for me . I found this and i answered in random way
Your Cell Phone? My old Blackberry 9900 and iPhone 5s
Your Hair? black but i don't think so my hair so black lol , well i can't say that my hair is straight because apparently it's not straight. My hair depend on my mood so random -_-
Your Favorite Food? Seafood but i have allergic with that :(
Your Dream Last Night? Nothing, stop dreaming start action (maybe?)
It's weird
Your Favorite Drink? Teh kotak i'm so addicted 'till now, i must get therapy for that
Your Dream/Goal? First practice, than defend. At last boast it!
What Room Are You In now? in my lovely dying bed room
Your Hobby? Sleep (it can be hobby?) hey everyone just love to sleep, ya that's my hobby :)
Your Fear? Ghost :) people are usually afraid of animals but i'm not really afraid of animals
Where Do You See Yourself In Six Years? in 6 years i would be around 23 years old! wooow that is old. Cool! I must getting married on that age
Where Were You Last Night? home .... studying for ujian nasional :)
Something That You Aren't?
Liar and hypocrite
Cupcakes? i afraid of eating red velvet cupcakes from online bakery Damn!
Wish List Item?
Where Did You Grow Up? Bali Bali and Bali
Last Thing You Did? Nothing just sleep yeah that's my hobby lol
What Are You Wearing? Pajamas
Your TV? What? So many politics issues headline in my TV
Your Pets? Nope
Friends? can't live without them !!! they're all just like my second family
Your Life? many weird , random, happy, some liar behind us, sad and other things have been happening. that's just life right?
Your Mood? Unpredictable
Missing Someone? not just someone , but a lot of people.
Vehicle? i can drive but my dad not sure if i bring his car ughhhh
Something You Aren't Wearing? Boys's clothes
Your Favorite Store? don't have a FAVORITE one because i LOVE them all
Your Favorite Color? Blue
When Was The Last Time You Laughed? Important to know this? :)
Last Time You Cried? Last week i have cried about my mark :"(
Your Best Friend? So many.....
One Place You Go To Over And Over Again? my house
Facebook? Still exist, search tita amalinda masta
Favorite Place To Eat? anywhere depend on my mood
life have been wild.crazy.stressed out lately and hard too but that's life, there are happy things happening , there are also weird things happening
Your Hair? black but i don't think so my hair so black lol , well i can't say that my hair is straight because apparently it's not straight. My hair depend on my mood so random -_-
Your Favorite Food? Seafood but i have allergic with that :(
Your Dream Last Night? Nothing, stop dreaming start action (maybe?)
It's weird
Your Favorite Drink? Teh kotak i'm so addicted 'till now, i must get therapy for that
Your Dream/Goal? First practice, than defend. At last boast it!
What Room Are You In now? in my lovely dying bed room
Your Hobby? Sleep (it can be hobby?) hey everyone just love to sleep, ya that's my hobby :)
Your Fear? Ghost :) people are usually afraid of animals but i'm not really afraid of animals
Where Do You See Yourself In Six Years? in 6 years i would be around 23 years old! wooow that is old. Cool! I must getting married on that age
Where Were You Last Night? home .... studying for ujian nasional :)
Something That You Aren't?
Liar and hypocrite
Cupcakes? i afraid of eating red velvet cupcakes from online bakery Damn!
Wish List Item?
-i can pass for Ujian Nasional and SNMPTN or SBMPTN in faculty of medicine in Universitas Padjajaran Bandung
-a pair of new shoes
-a whole bucket of nutella
-have a great 2014
Where Did You Grow Up? Bali Bali and Bali
Last Thing You Did? Nothing just sleep yeah that's my hobby lol
What Are You Wearing? Pajamas
Your TV? What? So many politics issues headline in my TV
Your Pets? Nope
Friends? can't live without them !!! they're all just like my second family
Your Life? many weird , random, happy, some liar behind us, sad and other things have been happening. that's just life right?
Your Mood? Unpredictable
Missing Someone? not just someone , but a lot of people.
Vehicle? i can drive but my dad not sure if i bring his car ughhhh
Something You Aren't Wearing? Boys's clothes
Your Favorite Store? don't have a FAVORITE one because i LOVE them all
Your Favorite Color? Blue
When Was The Last Time You Laughed? Important to know this? :)
Last Time You Cried? Last week i have cried about my mark :"(
Your Best Friend? So many.....
One Place You Go To Over And Over Again? my house
Facebook? Still exist, search tita amalinda masta
Favorite Place To Eat? anywhere depend on my mood
Favorite place to visit? Bali :3
Have a traumatic? Yesh
life have been wild.crazy.stressed out lately and hard too but that's life, there are happy things happening , there are also weird things happening
Have a blast Monday
Love
Tita xx <3
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